Well hello there. And happy summer solstice! I sure did miss you.But I’m back from my blogging hiatus now.
(How’s that for equivocating?)
Apart from the equivocating, though, I really want to tell you what I’ve been up to the past 15 months.
But along the way I discovered there was something else. Something I needed to get back to.
I’ve been getting back to ordinary hope and joy.
Yes! I experienced a surge of hopefulness when I was away. It surprised me, considering the waves of doom and gloom in the news. I mean, the world’s metaphorical weather report has kind of been stuck on dark and dreary for months.
At first I thought this elevation of hope was due to less exposure to the dark stuff. Many days I was just too busy to pay attention. But then I noticed something else: less exposure to the super sunny stuff was having an effect on my hopefulness too.
By super sunny I mean ultra-wattage, cover-your-eyes proclamations that life is or can be magical, awesome, unbelievable. I don’t know for sure, but maybe that’s a knee-jerk reaction to all the doom and gloom. So I decided to turn most of it off. The dire lamentations AND the stratospheric possibilities. And then the best thing happened.
Hope bloomed. Very quietly.
With each breath of hope I found myself flowing closer to the middle of life’s continuum, neither drenched by waves of bleakness nor puffed up by striving for an extraordinary life.
I settled into that middle place for a spell, and stepped into my ordinariness.
I stepped into listening, perhaps more keenly than ever.
I stepped into studying. Taking classes. Learning.
I stepped into looking underneath and letting things go.
I stepped into the possibility that I could be as patient with myself as I am with my clients.
I stepped into deeper layers of creativity.
And then, most unexpectedly, I stepped into the realization that in spite of my busy schedule, I was ready to begin something I’d had on the back-burner for years: a creative wisdom circle for women.
You know how sometimes in your life you’re stunned (in a good way) by something? Then you say, Yes. Yes, of course, this…this is so right.
Well, that’s what the women’s circle has been for me, all 10 months of it, as it nears the end of its first year and gears up for the second.
So these days I’m concentrating on celebrating my ordinariness.
I’ve had months now of getting back to ordinary hope and joy. Months of grounding myself in the middle. Sometimes, sitting with clients who feel hopeless and helping them find a way back to ordinary hope and joy. Then being reminded (again) that ordinary is a lovely place to be.
Ordinary is life. Ordinary is hope. Ordinary is joy.
I can’t think of a better day than this, the longest of the year, to reconnect with you and welcome you back to my blogging home. And what I really want to know is…how the heck are you?!
P.S. If you try to leave a comment, WordPress may act a little bossy and ask for your password. Not sure why it’s doing that, but I’m looking into it.