So even if the hot loneliness is there, and for 1.6 seconds we sit with that restlessness when yesterday we couldn’t sit for even one, that’s the journey of the warrior.
SO, A FEW WEEKS AGO, I MADE REFERENCE TO MY INNER WARRIOR.
Let’s just call her Wise Warrior Woman. WWW for short. We might even consider that she looks a little like the goddess Athena. That’s her in the photo, looking all wise and knowing. Of course, it’s easy to pull that off when you’re a statue.
Anyway, she’s been teaching me some stuff during my Meaning Mondays adventure. And as it turns out, I’m a pretty good student most of the time.
I understand what she’s saying about how a warrior sometimes needs to step up and fight, preferably for win-win outcomes. I also get her point about the importance of retreating, that smart warriors know when to step back and regroup to marshall their forces. Plus I’ve learned that even surrender is occasionally a viable option.
While I may not have mastered these lessons yet, at least I’m on the path. But there’s one warrior subject I’m still struggling with, and boy, is it bringing down my GPA.
That would be the area called Discipline and Focus.
DISCIPLINE AND FOCUS. FOCUS AND DISCIPLINE.
See? I have to repeat it several times to get my mind around it. Because there’s this other part of me that tries to interfere. Let’s just call her Curious Creative Chick. CCC for short.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I love CCC. We go way back, and I owe her a lot. But let’s face it, she doesn’t need to run the show all the time. In fact, it’s high time she teamed up with WWW.
I figure they’re kind of like Claude Rains and Humphrey Bogart at the end of Casablanca. Just imagine it: Curious Creative Chick turns to Wise Warrior Woman and says, “I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship.” And they walk off into the sunset, arm-in-arm.
Well, maybe they’re not walking arm-in-arm yet, but at least they’re trying. And they’re talking. In fact, here’s a replay of a recent morning they spent together.
CURIOUS CREATIVE CHICK SPENDS THE MORNING WITH WISE WARRIOR WOMAN
WWW: Wake up! We’re gonna get a lot done today.
CCC: Mmmmm. The bed is sooooo warm. Let’s snooze a little.
WWW: Weren’t you planning to start each day with one hour of writing? What’s the point if you stay in bed?
CCC: Oh. OK. How about I grab a bowl of cereal and cup of decaf, then meet you at the computer?
WWW: Sounds good.
30 MINUTES LATER, CCC SITS DOWN AND TURNS ON THE COMPUTER
WWW: Wow, that took awhile.
CCC: Well, see, I was waiting for the coffee when I noticed a red-breasted hummingbird at the feeder. Had to step outside. By the way, it’s gorgeous today.
WWW: I know. How about we enjoy the view from here, as we write?
WRITING BEGINS. A FEW MINUTES PASS.
WWW: What are you doing?
CCC: Reading what I’ve written so far.
WWW: It’s only a few sentences. Keep going.
CCC: I will. But you know what, I’m gonna check email.
WWW: Remember, you said no email until after you’d written for one hour.
CCC: Did I really say that? I thought you said that.
WWW: Hmm, I suppose it was a mutual decision.
CCC: Yeah. (Distracted now.) Hey look! I got an email from Cheryl. And a few more comments on my blog. Haha! Oh, this is funny. You’ve gotta read it.
WWW: It is funny. And how’s the writing going?
CCC: I need some music.
WWW: Good idea. Let’s do classical. You know, the Mozart Effect.
CCC: Um, I was thinking Stevie Wonder.
WWW: He’s fabulous. You like to sing along with him, don’t you?
CCC: Yeeesss. OK, I get your point. That might be a little distracting. How about Aaron Copland?
WWW: Nice choice.
THE MORNING PROGRESSES, WITH MORE STOPS AND STARTS. AFTER ABOUT 90 MINUTES, AN HOUR OF WRITING HAS BEEN ACCOMPLISHED.
WWW: Good job!
CCC: Thanks, I need a break.
WWW: You know, you’ve had a few breaks already. What else do you want to work on?
CCC: Cleaning up in here.
WWW: Start with the smallest pile. It’ll go faster.
CCC: Maybe I should cook that chicken instead.
CCC: (Slightly defensive.) Well I don’t want it to go bad. It’s organic. Free-range. On sale! I’m making a Mediterranean dish.
WWW: Didn’t you just buy it yesterday? If you wait until tomorrow, how likely is it to go bad?
CCC: (Sighs.) Not much.
WWW: And how long have these piles been stacking up?
CCC: Four months.
WWW: OK, let’s get down to business then.
CCC: Hey, don’t you love these Sharpie pens? The colors? I hardly ever get a chance to use them. (Beginning to doodle.)
WWW: That’s pretty.
CCC: Yes! This is my favorite. Reminds me of the purple trumpet vine that’s starting to bloom. Want to go look at it?
WWW: We can see it through the window. And we went out to stare at it yesterday.
CCC: I know, I’m not losing my memory. I just thought it might be fun.
WWW: Yes. In the meantime, though, how many piles have we tackled?
CCC: Right, Sarge!
THEY GET TO WORK. PROGRESS IS SLOW.
CCC: I’m bored! I need my boredom ritual!
WWW: Is it possible you’re not really bored, but resisting doing a job that’s not your favorite?
CCC: I guess.
WWW: So how about you do just a little bit more, say, five minutes?
CCC: Alright. (She mopes a bit.)
THE CLEANING RESUMES. TIME PASSES. EVEN THOUGH THEY DON’T GET IT ALL DONE, THEY MAKE A BIG DENT IN THE PILES.
CCC: Whew! What a relief to get that done.
WWW: Feels good, doesn’t it?
WWW: What’s next?
CCC: Clients today. Got to head over to my office.
WWW: Right, you wanted to get there early to look over the new lease.
CCC: Oh, thanks for reminding me.
WWW: Got your files ready to go?
WWW: Got your datebook, phone, and iPod?
CCC: Check! Check! Check!
WWW: Know what you’re going to wear?
CCC: Check! My green linen blouse and trouser jeans. Plus my favorite scarf, of course.
WWW: Of course.
THEY HEAD TO THE BEDROOM. CCC PULLS OUT THE CLOTHES AND SCARF.
CCC: Ooops! I forgot. Spilled my soup on it last week. Never took it to the cleaners.
WWW: Yeah, black beans don’t do much for that scarf.
CCC: But wait! (She pulls out six more scarves, intent on trying each one on.) What about this one? Or this? The colors are good but I don’t know if the fabric goes with linen. I think there’s another one here…
WWW: Hey, you know what? (She plucks a scarf from the pile.) Trust me. They’re all good. So just wear this one.
WITH THAT, THEY DRESS AND LEAVE THE HOUSE. AND CAN BE SEEN WALKING ARM-IN-ARM, INTO THE AFTERNOON SUN.
How about you, my friends? Got any divergent parts of yourself that are trying to come together? What are they sayin’ to each other? Let’s have some fun and start a conversation about it today.
WHY NOT START NOW?